Happy New Year!

It will be a happy new year. I am sure of it. Last year was so difficult, but we made it and our ribs are not showing! My perspective of what is important has changed so much in only 12 months. A year ago, we had been told that Martin could lose his job due to his illness. He is still working there, but for how long? Not sure. Heavenly Father has really sheltered us through everything. My New Years resolution is: Don't worry. If something is going to happen, it will happen, and worrying won't change a thing. I can change what I can change, and I will certainly be on my toes to make sure trouble doesn't find my through my own fault, but as for the rest, I will take it as it comes.

Today, in church, I heard a talk on prayer. It seems to have been directed at me, and I listened carefully. One thing in particular, was when the speaker talked about knowing when your prayers are answered. This has been a subject strong in my mind for several weeks. How do I know what Heavenly Father is trying to tell me? It should be so simple. Just tell me that Martin will live through this illness. Tell me that he will not lose is job. Tell me that we will continue with our security in life. That is what I want to hear. What I think I am hearing is: whatever happens, is my will. No matter how the job situation turns out, I will protect you. If you are prepared, you should not fear. I will tell you, that I feel, even know that Martin will get the help he needs. There, I said it. It is out in the open now. I felt that way about Bobbie Jo too, but things went differently than I hoped. That is why I am afraid to say things out loud because I don't want to jinx myself. I will just look positively to the future, and pray for courage to face whatever happens.