We Will Be Okay

The Gentle Giant is sick again. He has contracted a cold and is having a really hard time breathing. With his lungs so weak, he cannot get any kind of respiratory illness, and this time he is really miserable. It was so hard dealing with his heart problem, and for now, we have laid that to rest, but his lungs cannot seem to improve. I don't know what the future will bring for this, but I have learned to not worry over something I can't help.

He is still going to work, and for now, still getting paid. I can't get over the fact that we are still hanging on after more than a whole year. I wish he could stay home and just take it easy, but for now, he has to go to work to keep our benefits going.

His supervisor doesn't speak to him anymore. I guess someone yanked his tail for being so hostile to Martin. The students love Martin, and the other instructors are really upset at the way Martin has been treated. This helps Martin with his self-esteem, as he was beginning to think that everyone was against him. He is a wonderful instructor. How I wish that he could know that he can continue to teach, he loves interracting with the students and other employees. Because he has become so ill from what seems to be toxic mold in the building, it seems that the higher-ups just want to be rid of him and close the door on the whole thing.

How I love this man. How I hate seeing him be so mistreated. The whole time I have known Martin, he has been ready and willing to help anyone in anyway he can. He has come so far, has realized his dream of being and instructor, and would like to finish out his career in a few years teaching and helping his students. He has made such a difference. Many of his students over the years have gone on to be successful, turning their lives around from being prison inmates, having drug problems, and many other problems. Martin has always made them know that they can succeed in life, and he has many students that have come back year after year to thank him for believing in them.

We will see what happens. I know that Heavenly Father will guide and protect us. The future will be wonderful for us, as have been the previous 40 years. It has never been easy, but it has been worth it. Today, we got another certified letter from the college with information about the upcoming hearing where Martin is contesting his termination. For a moment, blinding panic gripped me, and then, a sweet feeling of peace came over me. It is true, I have grown to know not to panic, and I calmed down, knowing that this is the road we are on. When Martin got the letter, he took me in his arms and kissed the top of my head. (He is really tall). He told me that I should remember that other such letters will arrive, but not to worry, whatever Heavenly Father wills is the best for us. My heart was so full of love for this Gentle Giant. We will be okay.